Well its Sunday night and I just want to spill the beans on how frustrated I am. I'm tired of being pregnant at the same time I'm no where near ready to deliver this baby. I don't feel physically ready or mentally ready. I'm not sure what Sariah is going to do when she finally understands or what her reaction is going to be when she realizes this baby is here to stay. I'm going to keep this brief but I have about a million things I'd like to be sure are ready before I have this baby. On the other hand I really am getting to the uncomfortable part of this pregnancy. I know I'm going to get bigger and I'm going to gain more weight but I just don't want to. I told my mom I'm getting cold feet about this whole 2 kids thing just the thought of juggling two kids is enough to keep me from having more. But I most likely won't remember all of this when I get the longing for a cute tiny baby. Something that has helped since I became a parent is nap time, a few moments to my self. I don't think I'll ever see those sweet moments ever again. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. How will I cope? Well I guess I'm more nervous about this whole thing is (and yes I'm totally blaming other people) I've been reading my Sister-in-law's blog about having 2nd and 3rd child and it scares me. I know it will be totally worth it and I couldn't ask for a better toddler than the one I have. But I must ask the question again how will I cope.
Well I feel much better and I didn't even mentioned the other million fears I have and things I want to do before having another baby.
Till next time.
1 comment:
it's actually not as bad as it seems. from how sariah was acting with cooper the other day, i'm sure she will be a big help and things will go smoothly. i'll let you know how it is with three when i get my other one home.
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