Dr Visit Today :)

Well I got to see my favorite doctor today and I was hoping for really good news. I guess it was good news, I just wanted better news. The baby is in the -1 pelvic station, I'm 60 % effaced, and I'm almost 2 cm dilated. Yipeee, it was good news, I just hoped it would be go to the hospital and you’re going to deliver this baby (while feeling as good as I do). Well I knew this would never happen but I can have dreams. I also should mention last week I was 50% effaced and in a -2 pelvic station so I have made some small progress. I misunderstood and I just want to correct myself.

I also feel I should make myself clear about my earlier post, I'm 154 lbs (as of today and yes I put on 4 lbs in 9 days and that is an all time high for me) and I was only trying to say I thought my husband is pretty strong to be able to pull me into a sitting position with one arm while half asleep and lying on his back. I think it is different that my weight is more in my stomach than all over and that I couldn’t do the same thing even if the other person was much lighter than me (try it and you’ll see what kind of muscles you have to have to do that). I have no problems with my weight and I'm comfortable posting it on the internet. I do think that 155 lbs is a lot for my bones and frame to handle, I would consider myself petite (not just short but small ankles and wrist and shoulder width) so I don’t handle weight as well as I’d like plus I have my dad’s bad joints. I never intended to say everyone should be my size. Actually I would much rather have a stronger bone structure and have my "normal" weight be at 150 rather than being small and looking so fragile. I have hurt myself trying to prove to others I'm small but I can handle whatever I'm given.
Wow I didn't realize just how my weight is part of who I am and how I act. I don't like being small or other people saying they wish they could be my size. Some of my friends and those I know who are very beautiful and what I would consider ideal (in a physical sense) are taller and heavier and stronger than I am. I am happy with the body I was given (I'm not saying the grass is greener on the other side of the fence) I just don't think people realize what I lack and how much they have. I think the world would be a nicer place if everyone were happy with what they had (both physically and temporally). This really has being eye opening for me and so I am grateful I had this opportunity to think about this aspect of my life. My goal is to be stronger and healthier person. And now that I've told all of you I guess I have to do it. Well its late and I really need to rest up while I still can, until next time.